Release

Finally got together last Thursday. C tried to keep me from leaving. Not sure that he believed my "coffee with a girlfriend" story but I left anyway. P and I had been sending emails back and forth all week that had me so hot that there was no way that I was missing out on this! As usual, I did not leave disappointed. Can't believe that he still wanted me the way that he did even though it was the "wrong time of the month" for me. Of course I did miss the enjoyment of him running his tongue in my pussy and he was surely disappointed too but we both had a good time nonetheless. Still wonder WTF he is thinking sometimes when it comes to location. This time was at his business on a couch right next to a solid glass door. What if RB had decided to come by and surprise him? Guess he would not have been the only one surprised huh?
How does he get me so turned on just by kissing me? Gawd I felt like I would explode when he ran his hand down the front of my pants and started to finger my swollen, aching pussy. Finally he gets up and takes off his jeans to reveal his thick, hard dick and pulls my pants off at the same time with his other hand. I lay there admiring the treat that I am about to receive. He lays back down on top of me holding both of my hands up above my head and begins to kiss the sweet spots on my neck. I am close to begging him to give me what he knows I want when he runs the head of dick across my pussy and whispers in my ear to ask if that is what I have been waiting for. I moan yes and he finally enters me. Oh that first thrust felt so damn good! He asks me if he is hard enough for me and I turn my head to the side and bite his bicep to answer yes. He pumps me hard a few times and then tells me how good my pussy feels to him. I ask him if he likes it tight and he just manages to whisper uh-huh. I can tell that he is getting too close too quick so I ask him to take it slow. I love to feel him pull out and push that cock of his in me as deep as he can and then hesitate for just a moment before doing it again. He always watches my face so closely to see my expressions to be sure that he is pleasing me. He surely doesn't have to do that because he always satisfies me but it sooo turns me on to look up and see him watching me. He tells me that he wants to cum in my mouth but he is unsure how I would feel about that given my current condition. Of course I always want to do whatever would please him the most but I selfishly want to feel his dick pumping me full of his hot juice. I ask him if he would sit up. He sits up on the couch and allows be to straddle him face to face. He repositions me slightly because he tells me that he wants to be sure that I have all of him. I begin to slowly ride him and I feel myself quickly getting close to climaxing. He bites my nipples gently. Grinding on him harder and faster he tells me that he is cumming which just pushes me on over the edge. We cum together and it feels so intense to me! I just begin to smile and wrap my arms around him and tell him how good he did (he always asks me "did I do good?" afterwards).
This is the point where I begin to feel sad. The time that we have together goes by so quickly and because it is always so short we make the best of it when we are finally alone together. There have been just a few times that we have had longer than a couple of hours to be together and I will tell about those in a later post but for the most part we talk on the phone or by email and spend our actual time together taking care of our built up sexual frustrations. P has made the statement before that it is "not like he doesn't get it at home" but several times when he has come back into town from doing a job he tries to see me before even going home to RB. I also brought some toys to a hotel when we met up a while back and I got the feeling that she doesn't bring much excitement to the bedroom. Knowing him as I do it comes as a bit of a shock to me that he has been with someone this long who seemingly does not share the same sexual preferences as he does. Maybe that is why I am here for him?

Disappointment.....

Well, foiled again. As usual RB takes a day off on the day that P and I plan to hook up. Somehow I think she has noticed a a pattern to the phone calls or something and figured out our most likely to meet up day. P finally checked into the email after I sent him a text on how to get in since he had forgotten how to access it. Once in he found the email that I had sent him a few weeks ago describing in detail what I would have done to him had I been with him in his truck on that day. I think it really caught him off guard! I returned from lunch and my boss told me that some man had called me twice while I was at lunch and sounded disappointed that I was not in. I just started to laugh. I knew that he had read that email and was dying to talk. Sure enough, about ten minutes after I got back from lunch, he calls. He asks "what the hell was that?" I laugh and asked if he liked it. He says that he did but now he has a hard-on that he can't get rid of and he has got to be in the truck with this other guy for another 7-8 hours! Guess I got a "rise" from him out of that one! (sorry!)

That night he tries to get me to meet up with him when he gets back into town- at 3:00am! I ask how I am going to explain that one- out for ice cream? I send him a text before I go to bed and tell him " I wish I could be there...." He replies with "you can- 3:00am." Then he sends another one after I have gone to bed so I get to read it the next morning. It said "wish-i-could-shove-my-fat-cock-n-your-tight-ass." That was some wake up call! On Wednesday he calls me and asks what time I get to go to lunch. Unfortunately I had called C about 20 minutes before to tell him that I was actually going to get to go to lunch so it would be impossible to cancel those plans. Damn! Oh well, I wanted more than a quickie anyway.


During one of our conversations P tells me that he came home recently after one of his jobs about 2 or 3 in the morning to find his wife standing in the middle of the bed raising hell at him for how long it had taken him to get home. She thought that it should have taken him about 2 and 1/2 hours to get home and it had taken him 4 hours. He tries to explain to her that it would have been impossible for him to have made it back in that time from the part of the state that he was in and that there was construction on the interstate close to home so he went the long way around to avoid just sitting in traffic. She still refuses to believe him. I made the statement, just joking around with him, that knowing him the way that I do there is no telling what pit stops he may have made along the way. For someone who claims that they are in this just for the sex, he sure got upset that I would think that about him. He asked if he had stopped at my house on the way home and when I replied no he said well then I went home just like I said that I did. Then he asks why "we" don't trust him. I felt kinda bad at that point that he felt that way because I actually do trust him.

Later I sent P an email that I almost regretted sending but it was too late to delete it because he had already read it. Basically in it I told him that I do trust him, that he has always been honest with me (even when it has hurt), that I don't want him to ever feel that he has to lie to me to keep me around and that he knows that there is noting that he cannot talk to me about. Over the last year or so there has been an understanding that we just don't get mushy or really say how we feel, because this is just a fling, right? Anyway, last year after an old friend of ours unexpectedly dies I call to check on P and I tell him that I know that what I am going to say is probably breaking the rules but that I do still care about him. His reply is "I know and that does not go unnoticed." Other than that conversation this has been the only other time that I have expressed any feeling towards him at all and I was afraid that he would run. Instead he tried so hard to see me the next day (twice). Guess I didn't scare him too badly?